(I have said this blessing for decades; I believe it is from Ernest Holmes sister, although I have never been able to verify it. Please transform the nouns and pronouns to suit yourself, I hope it’s a blessing to you, too.)

I AM a place where God shines through, For She and I are one, not two.
She needs me where and as I AM; I never worry, fret nor plan.
I AM relaxed and free, God carries out her perfect plan through me,
And so it is….

This time I had decided not to go because I decided that I wanted to break the cycle of going with very little money. Two days before I received a phone call asking me if I would take over my girlfriend’s booth, as she felt spread too thin to go. She was making this decision for herself. She would let me have the booth for very cheap and I could pay her after the gig. I jumped at the opportunity and packed the car. The night before as I was getting ready for bed, I received the phone call that said that the booth had already been given to someone on the waiting list. What to do. I had no money, but the car was gassed and ready to go. I decided to not let the circumstances change my frame of mind and take a chance and go. Maybe I would get a chance to make money somehow.

The Universe had something else in mind. My friends had wanted me to come so had told me a while back I could stay with them for free. After hearing my news they told me that they would pay for my way in and my meals. I felt peaceful the first night when I heard the news, but I noticed in the car on the way there I was mad and had to work through that a bit doing EFT. Okay, then I was peaceful again. I asked the Universe to work with me and help me to manifest everything I needed. A half an hour prior to getting to the show, things just began to fall into place. My friends prepaid my parking fee and way in so I just gave them my name and voila, I was in. Needless to say, I had a great time. I connected with many wonderful people. I got to touch some lives and bring them some joy and relief. I got to learn more about the drumming that I love. I got invited to some other events. I learned more about a particular piece of jewelry that I own that I had questions about. I manifested a new piece of jewelry that corresponds with that first piece of jewelry. I got my body worked on and put back into alignment and I had a good time with all of it. Many experiences that I wouldn’t have had if I had stayed home. I had much less worry than all the other times that I had gone. Now I just need to let go of all worry and experience.

today it is my intention to stay in an attitude of appreciation even when it is not visible to my human eyes. wanting leaves me empty. i am right where i need to be and all is well. there is enough in the universe and it is the father’s good pleasure.

I watched the Youtube video of the two guys. I loved it. First, they were adorable. Also, I loved what they had to say. I really heard them when they talked about their experiences with vision board and writing down their perfect day and describing their lives.

When we stared I said I was giving myself the gift of time this weekend and I did. I work weekends, so having time isn’t something I normally fell. Truth is, it isn’t something I feel even on days I’m not working. When I wrote on Friday what I was doing this weekend I had the awareness that for me “not enough time” was as big as “not enough money.” Well this weekend, though having an unexpectedly busy Friday and working my usual full days Sat & Sun, I had time to sort and file a massive pile of papers, create new files where needed, do some housework, relax, sleep well, have a busy day at work, have my grand niece over for dinner (which I cooked) and teach her 60s dances for a play she’s in (big fun), sleep well, do my laundry, write 7 or 8 pages of what I’m calling “asking”, have a good day at work, write this and get what I will presume will be a third nights sound sleep. And before I do I’ll meditate for over 60 seconds visualizing what I wrote.

I feel better, more rested, more fulfilled than I have in a very long time.

I am so grateful to be part of this program with all of you. Thank you for your amazing energy.

Much love,
Col

What could this mean?

My first reaction — honestly the very first — “so something else is coming into my life.”

I’m so glad I participated in this experiment and have been working on my mindset. I was totally prepared on a deep level to have a positive response. Panic, fear, terror, et al, set in later. I’ve already applied for a couple of jobs I found on line as well as massaged other clients to see if they need any extra help. But underneath it all — there’s something I’m going to find or bump into or something that couldn’t get to me any other way.

I welcome the gift that has already made its presence known. I am thankful for the job I had while I had it and I am open to the next step in the road. The next piece of the puzzle. I am grateful for my new job.

Abundance in a Variety of Forms: This certainly resonates with me since whenever I have feelings of lack I try to switch over to feelings of appreciation. And since there are many areas of my life that have significant abundance (particularly my interpersonal relationships) it helps to focus on them, which contributes to increased abundance in all areas of my life.

Wanting identifies what is wanted AND where you stand relative to it. And whichever side of this is predominant in your vibration shows you whether the wanting is moving you away from (as in “yearning”) or towards (manifesting).

What a perfect distinction!

The entire time, though, I’ve kept my mind centered on a focus and a purpose. I left jobs that were no longer in alignment with my goals and every time I did, I’ve found myself closer and closer to what I’ve been imagining for myself. Sure, it was hard and I had to scrape together pennies to do it — but I never thought of it as poverty. I’ve always considered it part of the apprenticeship.

I write for television and film.

I haven’t sold anything to a studio yet but I get closer and closer with each choice I make. I left a career at a university to “retire” for a year and met a ton of writers — including the person who has rented me a room. She is a produced screenwriter. Her movies have made millions. I got a job at a theatre. I learned how to do some bookkeeping and how to manage budgets. I also got a look at how a small company is managed from the inside. Then I got a chance to be a writers assistant for a television writer — General Hospital.

I see clearly how I have whittled away at obstacle after obstacle and gained more access to the dream with each and every decision I’ve made.

This time last year — I would have said I’ve never been paid to write – that’s no longer true. I was paid to write copy on a DVD cover and my blog is starting to make money already and I only started it last month.

I am a paid writer. I do write for film and TV. I work for people who are active in the industry and live with a mentor who has just sold 2 screenplays and is about to produce for the first time. I’ve surrounded myself with the support I need, but it was entirely through baby steps. It was entirely by knowing that in a cheap setting, you can still find a diamond which can be removed and reset. I’ve gathered my diamonds and pearls and I’ve begun the process of setting the stones.

In relation to the quotes — I’ve replaced the concept of want with where. I know I’m on my journey and the question is where am I headed. By keeping my eyes on a goal but assuming that I’m making progress – I’ve made progress. It allows me to be thankful for what I have and proud of what I’ve achieved while keeping me focused and purposeful.